Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice,

but falling in love with you I had no control over.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.

I thought that you're the guy who can light up my life but no, i was totally wrong about you. Everything about you is just a lie. You lied about everything. You lied about us and thanks to you, i no longer believe in love. You're such a jerk. I can't hold any feelings anymore. I hate you, i hate love. I'm NOT ready to forget about everything. Haiz. Don't worry, i won't brag about this. Especially what happen the other day. Let's pretend nothing happen aites. I'm willing to forget about every romance started on 120909. Once again, Thanks dude! :(

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