Life, unpredictable.

I've tried my best to be happy but there is always something pulling me down. I dont want to talk about this, its over and i'm back to being me. Hey! Just because i haven't fallen to the floor, it doesn't mean i am still standing strong. Hmmm. You taught me how to be strong. And and you always say that love can sometimes be magic.. but isn't magic just an illusion?? You cheat my feeling! :( I'm glad that you've move on. Heard from manaf that you've found someone wayyyyyy better thn me. Hmmm.. Well, that's good for you when actually its not good for me. Sigh.

Dots.. When the star struck, I want to be on an island all alone and never have to deal with the tough parts of life. I'm sad that i'm on a path of my own. I'm no longer with you. Help me. Make me happy like i'm used to be. Lift me up and take me with you. I've tried filling the hole in my heart that you left me with, with everything that i can think of, but i'm running out of ideas. I've no ideas what went wrong in our days. People always tell you to never let your guard down around your heart, do they ever notice the fact that there are some people worth letting in?? or are they warning you from experience that some allowed to pass your defences only take you for granted? *shake head*

I'm still stuck in the past, holding on to what used to be. -________- That long face, haha! Psst. When you broke my heart, all i wanted back was you, but then i realized all i really want back is my happiness. Was i wrong to open my heart to you? or was i wrong to love you from the start?? Ayomakk! Stupid me. Confused! I'm trying to convince myself that i hate *insertname*! Its just so hard to believe because everytime i look at *insertname* my anger takes it leave. Its been 4 days past and i'm still in love you, but not for who you are, but for who you used to be. Now, i can't believe that you're complete different person. I hardly tell whether am i falling in love with the same person or not. Go figure. Sigh.

I've to agree with ManafPantat and Dannial. :)

Today's pool activity was cancelled because all of us got no money. Haha. No money how to play??! So, after MLY paper, hang out with Keciq and Marissa at Keciq's place. We eat, talked, laugh about random stuff. And hell yea! It was damnnnn fun eventhough there's only 3 of us. Thanks to MARISSA for the bebual-ing sorang2 pat dapur. Haha. Nak step mane peh chef gitu. CHEF MARISSA? Lol. As usual, keciq and i had a great laugh over marissa's "PROBLEM". Ayomak! That girl. Manyakk susah. Planned for movie marathon at bugis/town with Marissa, Malek and (maybe) Senget. Marissa and i planned to pinjam "tai-long" $100/- for movie marathon-ing this thursday. Hahha. Lame kan??! Hahha. Not sure lah. No money, no talk. :))

My hand started aching this morning. And guess what, i was late for MLY paper. Cool shit kan. 40 + minutes lambat. Haha. Errm, Okay. Well folks, that's for today. Good Night readers. :))